Tuesday, July 10, 2012

She's Gone

She came to me
on a warm breeze
there were ups and downs
smiles and frowns
and now it's come to an end
so long to my best friend

Hand on the door
boxes packed
She'll walk out
and never come back

She's going now
riding the wind again
out of my life
as fast as she came in

And here I am
back where I started
Learned a lot
broken hearted

use my words
there all that's left
memories of us
fading fast

living now
day to day
dreams of tomorrow
lay and wait

Always be there

I saw my mom crying
and I gave her advice
I saw staci drowning
and I provided the vice

and when I was crying
I knew what it felt like
and when I was drowning
I just wanted it to stop

and I knew
when I was in it
how true
the depression
to feel left
by the wayside
alone and lost,
with no light

no direction in life
no where to call home
my hearts not inside of me
it stays somewhere else


You don't want to talk
about past or present
Unable to stay calm
when you're still in it

I'm drowning in the water
of your dreams to unfold
I need a life preserver
just to keep me afloat

and your words are cold
and far from feeling
and your eyes are distant
this is who I was dating?

How could you speak to me
with such disdain
Like I'm so beneath you
for feeling what's inside

but I can't talk to you
because you never think
and the moment I ask a question
You start to feel guilt

and I don't know
if it's mine or yours
where it's coming from
we'll never know

but you'd bitch me out
for feeling sad
call me ugly
when my tears ran

You watch me sink
and say it's my fault
You watch me cry
and say we're already broken up

And you wanna stay friends
and I can't believe you
Cause no one talks to me that way
No one fights like you do

Dumb Love

I'll give you the keys
to start my ignition
my heart starts rolling
my head goes missing

My chest starts to heave
and I begin to leave
and you can feel the heat
radiating from me

And you think you can feel
so I'll offer you a meal
but all you do is heal
and my heart you steal

steer me all over
just out of your way
and I'll be another lover
caught in your wake


I can see it now
We're not connected
Like fractals exploding
Into a spiral staircase

You think I'm responsible
For feeling your pain
I think you're the person
Responsible for this grin

But that's just not real
They don't work that way
Everything I feel
It's just coming from me

Nothing to do
With giving or taking
Just what I want
How far I'm willing...

I can see it now
How we're connected
Like fractals exploding
Into a double helix

I wanna make love
To another lover
She'll give herself over
In the way that I want to

I'm looking for an experience
One unlike any other
I'll know when I've found it
I'll have found an equal

Had sex and gone fucking
Just shades of the rainbow
How would it feel
To be made love to

I can see it now
That connectedness
Fractals changing
But never stopping

And I look into your eyes
And I see your intention
You're another lover
Someone connected

Fingers through your hair
Our lips caressing
Sliding down the fractal
As it keeps changing

Intertwined Lovers
Too ripe for the picking
But it's not gonna stop me
I want to keep searching


Particles in space
Traveling at the speed of light
Dancing in shapes
Interacting in a void
All attracting
All reacting
Particles entangling
Dancing around Love and Fear
A supernova explodes
The identities dissolve
A transcendental equation
A Perfect reaction
In an ever changing system
No remainders
Nothing left over
All crossed out
Miraculous Endeavor
Particles in space
Traveling at the speed of light
Dancing in shapes
Interacting in a void

Just an Animal

Sleeping and eating
this is my life
taking what I want
how animals survive

I saw you slinking
your fine ass away
knew I had have you
would take you my way

I led you and fed you
Kept you safe from others
Ignored you and hid you
gave you my leftovers
I knew we were
different breeds
Lions and Puma's
just planting the seeds

We fight over the carcass
we fight over everything
noises we make
like biting at my face
I come away,
bloodied and scarred
and there you go
Off to look for more

Back to the jungle
where we belong
Lick my wounds
'til another comes along

Underground Caves

Space and time
They go and hide
Something in your eyes
I cannot deny

I want to talk
but would rather walk
words get in the way
follow me to a new day

we banter and laugh
but we're not talking
we forget the words
they mean nothing
Looking and watching
Our bodies happening
your lips begin to curl
You see my eyes wrinkle

The start of an adventure
Our bodies the center
Minds yearning for more
ready to explore
don't care about your day
what you have to say
give yourself over
see me as a lover

a body of peaks and valleys
A cave with no drawings
my finger's expression
your skins sensations

I want to go deep
My tongue taking lead
And shine my light
on the places in dark
left in the dark forever
cause no one else bothered

Lucifer's Hammer

I planted the seeds
and filled all their needs
Coming in crooked
why aren't you lookin'
Like Lucifer's Hammer
coming from above
I never saw it coming
but now it's obvious
How'd they grow
so damn fast
The stalks got away from me
They're not gonna last

You're like lucifer's hammer
my world is destroyed
Torn to pieces
and stuck in a void

You leaned away
and what can I say
Didn't give you enough water
guess I'm to blame

I was Lucifer's Hammer
and came in fast
to set your future
and destroy your past

Static Love

I'll swallow my soul
just to keep you close
and I'll play in all your games
if you'll only take my name

This can't be happening
not because of me
You broke me into pieces
and now you're gonna leave

Please stay with me
Just stay me

What could I have changed
Nothing will be the same
And nothing seems to matter
So why bother with the chatter

And I can't seem to leave
this dark place in me
Sorry you've got to die
just for me to survive

Please stay with me
Just stay me

I see you walk towards me
Looking sweet as a peach
Going into the class
Our paths look to pass

yoga matts in a pile
I see you across the tile
dancing all the while
your flashing me a smile

Please stay with me
stay me

And I'm not ready
but I took you with me
Would you stay a little longer
If I made you an omelet

Cause I want you to be
Just to be with me
If love is a state of mind
I just want to make up mine

Please stay with me
Just stay me
Stay me