Saturday, September 22, 2012

Time to let go

We came like Lightning
Thunder clouds rolling
Our hearts pounding
Our lives unfolding

My love a weight
Fueling this hate
Not your fault
We had to part

Skipping work to hang out
Swinging by to pick you up
Kissing you in parking lots
Taking you in public spots

A fun distraction
While it lasted
I miss my friend
My old companion

Jettisoned now
Destined to grow
I haven't seen you yet
I know because I've looked


Leaving behind, 
all the rest
swaying this time, 
towards our  nest

You lay down, 
our legs entangle
No longer numb, 
energy untangled

Our eyes meet, 
you shift your hips
My eyes drift, 
I find your lips

Plump and wet, 
changing in front of me
My mind goes blank
as the sensations flood me

Get lost in our field
Our bodies afire
My finger keeps inching
the stroke a little lighter

Electrical currents
Connecting our circuits
We both feel the pull
That only our bodies know

The room expands
and disappears
We become the sun
And melt our fears

Slowly come back
To this planet
Look down to you
Was it just 15 minutes?


Dead sex
An empty embrace
No life in your eyes now 
what's left

If I'd know then 
What was happening
I would have thought
I could have done something

Stop texting
I'm blocking your emails
I'll never read them
through all of these tears

One day
I'll be
Happy again, 
We'll see

And one day
In another life
Mabye we could be friends
Maybe not

I still miss you
And I hate you
Wish you were back in my arms

Fucking A

What are you doing
In my world
Who told you that you could walk right through the door?

Two-face bully
Talk of love but you treat me like a stiff

I just wanted
To be a friend
Sure I'd slip but I was there to the bitter end

And now you're back
No care in the world
As if nothing happened and we're still good friends

Where's your head
Up in the clouds
You talk about the past, with no sights on yourself

I can't seem to let it go 
but I know I need to grow
You could change in a thousand ways, won't stop me from seeing the girl I know

Calling it Quits

You're calling it quits
As the sun sets
We'll go our separate ways

You've got your lists
And your reasons
So think away your pain

I held your bullshit
Even when you were mean
You showed your talons
Your venomous teeth

And now it's over, you think you've got away
No one to yell at, to fan at the flames
I'm going my way, but it feels like a shame

Where's the point
When you stopped
Trying and started dying
You made me
Your villain
Not fair
For not tellin'
Me the truth
Of where you were at
No points, 
You scaredy-cat
I loved you, 
All of you
That's the truth and now I'm due
For my next
Big catch
You watch
Get jealous
And now it's all 
Coming back
Time for me
To get on track

Rising sun
On horizon
Bring light on in

Turning on
My dark side
Let the shadows grow

Floating away

Floating on
a little row boat
out to see
somewhere more remote

smiling at you 
while we row away from it all
touching you
my fingers running through your hair

your head on my chest
arms holding you tight
hearts beat together
drift off into the night

reality lingers at the waters edge
mind mind races
my cloudy head
my body aches
longs for your touch
and in the end
I fear it's all lost

My patterns return
like the fish of the sea
eating one another
surviving another day

we're not living
stuck at sea
you're all I need
to stop growing me

and I look around
and realize your gone
the facade of connection
when I'm really all alone


Call me up
Give me the location
I'm on my way
with no hesitation

The moments we share
never last long
but we have a ball
and it's never boring

we keep burning hot
with no sign of slowing
she's got my number
and knows just how to play me

and I wanna talk
but she's not in the mood
and I want to sulk
when she's not around

Dear God i'm resentful
and afraid I've fallen
with no one to help me
Navigate these emotions

I know I'm alone
Always have been
I just keep wanting more
more love and affection

Seeing Again

A chance encounter
I see you again
You look different
and somehow the same

we laugh and touch
play games with our eyes
you see my eye wrinkles
just like old times

and for a moment I
let myself realize
how much I like seeing you
how I miss being with you

And we say goodbye
with plans to meet again
but as we turn to walk away
I know it won't happen

Because we could have it
but for how long
It could be magical
before reality returns

I've loved since you
and I saw what it was
Nothing too special
We'll have it with anyone

No Mistakes

This could be the biggest mistake I've made
but we'll never know, to rest it's been laid

and we'll adapt and change
and find a way to stay sane
and at the end of the day
we'll just sit there and say
it was for the better
no one will be wiser

but I'll know it could've gone any way
and I'm just sitting here waiting for the day
when you crawl back and look in my eye
and I'll see you learned, but we won't cry

cause we adapt and change
find ways to stay sane
our days grow short
and our nights get long
the darkness lingers
a little longer every time

Wednesday, September 19, 2012


You speak so violently
Jaw tight, you'd sit and stew
I'd just watch you quietly
never really seeing you
And in the end, 
no one wins 
and you just look at me

You never asked for what you wanted
I'd never look into my own heart
And in the end, 
we grew apart, 
what's left now

Moving away and changing jobs
Leaving behind new found friends
Resumes, walking, 
interviews and train-hopping
I knew it'd be hard, but never take this long
parties, faces, 
names and places
Turn on's starting while my world keeps turning
Writing like my hands on fire
flying on the wings I've borrowed
dancing with the fire snake
grooving for my shadow's sake

I feel a little like a child
looking back on what we created
I still think I hate you
for what you hid
In the end, 
were you ever my friend, 
you stranger

Now and then, I still think of you
and our little dog too
Still feels like 
a hole in my heart, 
and I just wonder why

Living in the Machine

This machine was
Built for us
For our future 
For people to prosper
Along came, 
Small men
Who Lacked love
But not envy

They put price tags on everything
Created a new step in sharing
We use the system
And see the symptoms
Makes us compete
To make ends meat
And we blame each other
For simply being animal

The charges lead
By unhappy people
Living unfulfilled Lives
Thinking their past was better
Wanting to Shrink all
To their lowly level

Never look to the top
To the operators above
The ones who create price tags
And promise to keep 'em down

And the operators fight
With a new group to blame
Loads of money raised
For their new campaign

So we all point and attack
And It's always the same
Inside this machine 
We're all still enslaved

The Burden Anthem

This world was barren, but full of life
Empty of buildings, and oh so ripe
And the animals saw us, even at night,
But they were helpless, we'd win the fight

On civilizations, we woke up
Traveling cross towns, knew what was right
The congregations arose, just out of spite
And some understood, they got to see light

And we have leaders
But we can lead ourselves
Who do we become
When the leaders lead us?

Idea of money and job, 
And all the steps involved
The time and energy, 
The system needs to evolve
Why such an enemy, 
And so removed from love

This place is full of stories
And the metaphors can travel everywhere
This place is heaven and hell
It can change at every corner

We created this world
Created these burdens
The river may have been straight
But we've made it perverted

And some will say, "We're powerless"
And really then the imagination's lost.
We got ourselves in, can get ourselves out
Come together to see what the big pictures about


I will love you
Long as you stick around
Will you stay with me
Forever and for all time

They stop and stare at me
To point and talk and giggle
I don't wanna be seen
Just hide out in the shadows

I will love you
Long as you stick around
I don't need you
Except when I feel down

I wanna eat her out
Devour her entirely
Just to prove I could
Another notch on my belt

I will love you
Long as you stick around
I'm just an animal
Who gets lonely in the dark


Seasons changing
The leaves falling
Moon shining
My breath freezing

Grab my scarf
outta storage
smells like Puffers
My old companion

Memories of us
running through the park
The grass so green
the Leaves piled up

Your little dog smile
as you frolic along
hiding in the leaves
we play our own games

tired and sweaty
we return home
both in the shower
to wash away the germs

Holding you 
against my chest
Give me dog kisses
just to connect
smelling your little paws
A memory I can't forget

Winter's here again
the Leaves are brown
Maybe I'll see you
playing with some new friends

Game Over

She worshipped me
and I could see
what was happening
but I wouldn't concede

I pretended otherwise
to get my way
and ended on the otherside
with no games to play

and now I'm left
feeling spun out of control
no longer sure of what's up
no longer sure of where to go

feeling empty
a lack of myself
I'm hiding somewhere
under all the grief

Lap Dog

I wake up in the middle of the night
Another nightmare, givin me a fright
I see your face
I remember your games
Go back to the place
When nothing changed
And I wonder
And I wonder
Were we ever friends
Or just lovers

I see your name flashin on my phone
My heart starts to drop
I can't seem to let go
See images of you
With your other guys
Feeling small
Left by wayside
And I wonder
And I wonder
Were we ever friends
Or just lovers

What's wrong with me
Why can't I see
How I'm guilty
What's wrong with me
Why can't I see
The way she treated me

I can't keep you close
I gotta cut you loose
You're bringing me down
With all your frowns
I was never me, 
Never good enough
You'd bitch me out, 
Like you had it rough

I was caged and disciplined
I knew what was bad
Never learned the right way
You never wanted it good
And when I look back
I see what I was
I was just your lap dog
So loyal and dumb
You just put me down
Just put me down
And put me out
Into the ground
And I wonder
And I wonder
Were we ever friends
Or just lovers

And you say you're losing
Your very best friend
And I think to myself
This needs to end
Cause we were just
Just no longer friends