Stuck

Dead sex

An empty embrace

No life in your eyes now 

what's left

If I'd know then 

What was happening

I would have thought

I could have done something

Stop texting

I'm blocking your emails

I'll never read them

through all of these tears

One day

I'll be

Happy again, 

We'll see

And one day

In another life

Mabye we could be friends

Maybe not

I still miss you

And I hate you

Wish you were back in my arms

Fucking A

What are you doing

In my world

Who told you that you could walk right through the door?

Two-face bully

Hypocrit

Talk of love but you treat me like a stiff

I just wanted

To be a friend

Sure I'd slip but I was there to the bitter end

And now you're back

No care in the world

As if nothing happened and we're still good friends

Where's your head

Up in the clouds

You talk about the past, with no sights on yourself

I can't seem to let it go 

but I know I need to grow

You could change in a thousand ways, won't stop me from seeing the girl I know

Calling it Quits

You're calling it quits

As the sun sets

We'll go our separate ways

You've got your lists

And your reasons

So think away your pain

I held your bullshit

Even when you were mean

You showed your talons

Your venomous teeth

And now it's over, you think you've got away

No one to yell at, to fan at the flames

I'm going my way, but it feels like a shame

Where's the point

When you stopped

Trying and started dying

You made me

Your villain

Not fair

For not tellin'

Me the truth

Of where you were at

No points, 

You scaredy-cat

I loved you, 

All of you

That's the truth and now I'm due

For my next

Big catch

You watch

Get jealous

And now it's all 

Coming back

Time for me

To get on track

Rising sun

On horizon

Bring light on in

Turning on

My dark side

Let the shadows grow

Floating away

Floating on

a little row boat

out to see

somewhere more remote

smiling at you 

while we row away from it all

touching you

my fingers running through your hair

your head on my chest

arms holding you tight

hearts beat together

drift off into the night

reality lingers at the waters edge

mind mind races

my cloudy head

my body aches

longs for your touch

and in the end

I fear it's all lost

My patterns return

like the fish of the sea

eating one another

surviving another day

we're not living

stuck at sea

you're all I need

to stop growing me

and I look around

and realize your gone

the facade of connection

when I'm really all alone

Falling

Call me up

Give me the location

I'm on my way

with no hesitation

The moments we share

never last long

but we have a ball

and it's never boring

we keep burning hot

with no sign of slowing

she's got my number

and knows just how to play me

and I wanna talk

but she's not in the mood

and I want to sulk

when she's not around

Dear God i'm resentful

and afraid I've fallen

with no one to help me

Navigate these emotions

I know I'm alone

Always have been

I just keep wanting more

more love and affection

Seeing Again

A chance encounter

I see you again

You look different

and somehow the same

we laugh and touch

play games with our eyes

you see my eye wrinkles

just like old times

and for a moment I

let myself realize

how much I like seeing you

how I miss being with you

And we say goodbye

with plans to meet again

but as we turn to walk away

I know it won't happen

Because we could have it

but for how long

It could be magical

before reality returns

I've loved since you

and I saw what it was

Nothing too special

We'll have it with anyone

No Mistakes

This could be the biggest mistake I've made

but we'll never know, to rest it's been laid

and we'll adapt and change

and find a way to stay sane

and at the end of the day

we'll just sit there and say

it was for the better

no one will be wiser

but I'll know it could've gone any way

and I'm just sitting here waiting for the day

when you crawl back and look in my eye

and I'll see you learned, but we won't cry

cause we adapt and change

find ways to stay sane

our days grow short

and our nights get long

the darkness lingers

a little longer every time