She's Gone

She came to me

on a warm breeze

there were ups and downs

smiles and frowns

and now it's come to an end

so long to my best friend

Hand on the door

boxes packed

She'll walk out

and never come back

She's going now

riding the wind again

out of my life

as fast as she came in

And here I am

back where I started

Learned a lot

broken hearted

use my words

there all that's left

memories of us

fading fast

living now

day to day

dreams of tomorrow

lay and wait

Always be there

I saw my mom crying

and I gave her advice

I saw staci drowning

and I provided the vice

and when I was crying

I knew what it felt like

and when I was drowning

I just wanted it to stop

and I knew
when I was in it

how true
the depression

to feel left
by the wayside

alone and lost,
with no light

no direction in life

no where to call home

my hearts not inside of me

it stays somewhere else

Friends

You don't want to talk

about past or present

Unable to stay calm
when you're still in it

I'm drowning in the water

of your dreams to unfold

I need a life preserver

just to keep me afloat

and your words are cold

and far from feeling

and your eyes are distant

this is who I was dating?

How could you speak to me

with such disdain

Like I'm so beneath you
for feeling what's inside

but I can't talk to you

because you never think

and the moment I ask a question

You start to feel guilt

and I don't know

if it's mine or yours

where it's coming from

we'll never know

but you'd bitch me out

for feeling sad

call me ugly

when my tears ran

You watch me sink

and say it's my fault

You watch me cry

and say we're already broken up

And you wanna stay friends
and I can't believe you
Cause no one talks to me that way
No one fights like you do

Dumb Love

I'll give you the keys

to start my ignition

my heart starts rolling

my head goes missing

My chest starts to heave

and I begin to leave

and you can feel the heat

radiating from me

And you think you can feel

so I'll offer you a meal

but all you do is heal

and my heart you steal

steer me all over

just out of your way

and I'll be another lover

caught in your wake

Fractals

I can see it now

We're not connected

Like fractals exploding

Into a spiral staircase

You think I'm responsible

For feeling your pain

I think you're the person

Responsible for this grin

But that's just not real

They don't work that way

Everything I feel

It's just coming from me

Nothing to do

With giving or taking

Just what I want
How far I'm willing...

I can see it now

How we're connected

Like fractals exploding

Into a double helix

I wanna make love

To another lover

She'll give herself over

In the way that I want to

I'm looking for an experience

One unlike any other

I'll know when I've found it

I'll have found an equal

Had sex and gone fucking

Just shades of the rainbow

How would it feel

To be made love to

I can see it now

That connectedness

Fractals changing

But never stopping

And I look into your eyes

And I see your intention

You're another lover

Someone connected

Fingers through your hair

Our lips caressing

Sliding down the fractal
As it keeps changing

Intertwined Lovers
Too ripe for the picking
But it's not gonna stop me
I want to keep searching

Constants

Particles in space

Traveling at the speed of light

Dancing in shapes

Interacting in a void

 

All attracting

All reacting

Particles entangling

Dancing around Love and Fear

 

A supernova explodes

The identities dissolve

A transcendental equation

A Perfect reaction

In an ever changing system

 

No remainders

Nothing left over

All crossed out

Miraculous Endeavor

 

Particles in space

Traveling at the speed of light

Dancing in shapes

Interacting in a void

Just an Animal

Sleeping and eating

this is my life

taking what I want

how animals survive

I saw you slinking

your fine ass away

knew I had have you

would take you my way

I led you and fed you

Kept you safe from others

Ignored you and hid you

gave you my leftovers

I knew we were

different breeds

Lions and Puma's

just planting the seeds

We fight over the carcass
we fight over everything
noises we make
like biting at my face

I come away,

bloodied and scarred

and there you go

Off to look for more

Back to the jungle

where we belong

Lick my wounds
'til another comes along