Time to let go

We came like Lightning
Thunder clouds rolling
Our hearts pounding
Our lives unfolding

My love a weight
Fueling this hate
Not your fault
We had to part

Skipping work to hang out
Swinging by to pick you up
Kissing you in parking lots
Taking you in public spots

A fun distraction
While it lasted
I miss my friend
My old companion

Jettisoned now
Destined to grow
I haven't seen you yet
I know because I've looked

Breathe

Leaving behind, 

all the rest

swaying this time, 

towards our  nest

You lay down, 

our legs entangle

No longer numb, 

energy untangled

Our eyes meet, 

you shift your hips

My eyes drift, 

I find your lips

Plump and wet, 

changing in front of me

My mind goes blank

as the sensations flood me

Get lost in our field

Our bodies afire

My finger keeps inching

the stroke a little lighter

Electrical currents

Connecting our circuits

We both feel the pull

That only our bodies know

The room expands

and disappears

We become the sun

And melt our fears

Slowly come back

To this planet

Look down to you

Was it just 15 minutes?

Stuck

Dead sex

An empty embrace

No life in your eyes now 

what's left

If I'd know then 

What was happening

I would have thought

I could have done something

Stop texting

I'm blocking your emails

I'll never read them

through all of these tears

One day

I'll be

Happy again, 

We'll see

And one day

In another life

Mabye we could be friends

Maybe not

I still miss you

And I hate you

Wish you were back in my arms

Fucking A

What are you doing

In my world

Who told you that you could walk right through the door?

Two-face bully

Hypocrit

Talk of love but you treat me like a stiff

I just wanted

To be a friend

Sure I'd slip but I was there to the bitter end

And now you're back

No care in the world

As if nothing happened and we're still good friends

Where's your head

Up in the clouds

You talk about the past, with no sights on yourself

I can't seem to let it go 

but I know I need to grow

You could change in a thousand ways, won't stop me from seeing the girl I know

Calling it Quits

You're calling it quits

As the sun sets

We'll go our separate ways

You've got your lists

And your reasons

So think away your pain

I held your bullshit

Even when you were mean

You showed your talons

Your venomous teeth

And now it's over, you think you've got away

No one to yell at, to fan at the flames

I'm going my way, but it feels like a shame

Where's the point

When you stopped

Trying and started dying

You made me

Your villain

Not fair

For not tellin'

Me the truth

Of where you were at

No points, 

You scaredy-cat

I loved you, 

All of you

That's the truth and now I'm due

For my next

Big catch

You watch

Get jealous

And now it's all 

Coming back

Time for me

To get on track

Rising sun

On horizon

Bring light on in

Turning on

My dark side

Let the shadows grow

Floating away

Floating on

a little row boat

out to see

somewhere more remote

smiling at you 

while we row away from it all

touching you

my fingers running through your hair

your head on my chest

arms holding you tight

hearts beat together

drift off into the night

reality lingers at the waters edge

mind mind races

my cloudy head

my body aches

longs for your touch

and in the end

I fear it's all lost

My patterns return

like the fish of the sea

eating one another

surviving another day

we're not living

stuck at sea

you're all I need

to stop growing me

and I look around

and realize your gone

the facade of connection

when I'm really all alone

Falling

Call me up

Give me the location

I'm on my way

with no hesitation

The moments we share

never last long

but we have a ball

and it's never boring

we keep burning hot

with no sign of slowing

she's got my number

and knows just how to play me

and I wanna talk

but she's not in the mood

and I want to sulk

when she's not around

Dear God i'm resentful

and afraid I've fallen

with no one to help me

Navigate these emotions

I know I'm alone

Always have been

I just keep wanting more

more love and affection