Time to let go

We came like Lightning
Thunder clouds rolling
Our hearts pounding
Our lives unfolding

My love a weight
Fueling this hate
Not your fault
We had to part

Skipping work to hang out
Swinging by to pick you up
Kissing you in parking lots
Taking you in public spots

A fun distraction
While it lasted
I miss my friend
My old companion

Jettisoned now
Destined to grow
I haven't seen you yet
I know because I've looked

Breathe

Leaving behind, 

all the rest

swaying this time, 

towards our  nest

You lay down, 

our legs entangle

No longer numb, 

energy untangled

Our eyes meet, 

you shift your hips

My eyes drift, 

I find your lips

Plump and wet, 

changing in front of me

My mind goes blank

as the sensations flood me

Get lost in our field

Our bodies afire

My finger keeps inching

the stroke a little lighter

Electrical currents

Connecting our circuits

We both feel the pull

That only our bodies know

The room expands

and disappears

We become the sun

And melt our fears

Slowly come back

To this planet

Look down to you

Was it just 15 minutes?

Stuck

Dead sex

An empty embrace

No life in your eyes now 

what's left

If I'd know then 

What was happening

I would have thought

I could have done something

Stop texting

I'm blocking your emails

I'll never read them

through all of these tears

One day

I'll be

Happy again, 

We'll see

And one day

In another life

Mabye we could be friends

Maybe not

I still miss you

And I hate you

Wish you were back in my arms

Fucking A

What are you doing

In my world

Who told you that you could walk right through the door?

Two-face bully

Hypocrit

Talk of love but you treat me like a stiff

I just wanted

To be a friend

Sure I'd slip but I was there to the bitter end

And now you're back

No care in the world

As if nothing happened and we're still good friends

Where's your head

Up in the clouds

You talk about the past, with no sights on yourself

I can't seem to let it go 

but I know I need to grow

You could change in a thousand ways, won't stop me from seeing the girl I know

Calling it Quits

You're calling it quits

As the sun sets

We'll go our separate ways

You've got your lists

And your reasons

So think away your pain

I held your bullshit

Even when you were mean

You showed your talons

Your venomous teeth

And now it's over, you think you've got away

No one to yell at, to fan at the flames

I'm going my way, but it feels like a shame

Where's the point

When you stopped

Trying and started dying

You made me

Your villain

Not fair

For not tellin'

Me the truth

Of where you were at

No points, 

You scaredy-cat

I loved you, 

All of you

That's the truth and now I'm due

For my next

Big catch

You watch

Get jealous

And now it's all 

Coming back

Time for me

To get on track

Rising sun

On horizon

Bring light on in

Turning on

My dark side

Let the shadows grow

Floating away

Floating on

a little row boat

out to see

somewhere more remote

smiling at you 

while we row away from it all

touching you

my fingers running through your hair

your head on my chest

arms holding you tight

hearts beat together

drift off into the night

reality lingers at the waters edge

mind mind races

my cloudy head

my body aches

longs for your touch

and in the end

I fear it's all lost

My patterns return

like the fish of the sea

eating one another

surviving another day

we're not living

stuck at sea

you're all I need

to stop growing me

and I look around

and realize your gone

the facade of connection

when I'm really all alone

Falling

Call me up

Give me the location

I'm on my way

with no hesitation

The moments we share

never last long

but we have a ball

and it's never boring

we keep burning hot

with no sign of slowing

she's got my number

and knows just how to play me

and I wanna talk

but she's not in the mood

and I want to sulk

when she's not around

Dear God i'm resentful

and afraid I've fallen

with no one to help me

Navigate these emotions

I know I'm alone

Always have been

I just keep wanting more

more love and affection

Seeing Again

A chance encounter

I see you again

You look different

and somehow the same

we laugh and touch

play games with our eyes

you see my eye wrinkles

just like old times

and for a moment I

let myself realize

how much I like seeing you

how I miss being with you

And we say goodbye

with plans to meet again

but as we turn to walk away

I know it won't happen

Because we could have it

but for how long

It could be magical

before reality returns

I've loved since you

and I saw what it was

Nothing too special

We'll have it with anyone

No Mistakes

This could be the biggest mistake I've made

but we'll never know, to rest it's been laid

and we'll adapt and change

and find a way to stay sane

and at the end of the day

we'll just sit there and say

it was for the better

no one will be wiser

but I'll know it could've gone any way

and I'm just sitting here waiting for the day

when you crawl back and look in my eye

and I'll see you learned, but we won't cry

cause we adapt and change

find ways to stay sane

our days grow short

and our nights get long

the darkness lingers

a little longer every time

Whirlwind

You speak so violently

Jaw tight, you'd sit and stew

I'd just watch you quietly

never really seeing you

And in the end, 

no one wins 

and you just look at me

You never asked for what you wanted

I'd never look into my own heart

And in the end, 

we grew apart, 

what's left now

Moving away and changing jobs

Leaving behind new found friends

Resumes, walking, 

interviews and train-hopping

I knew it'd be hard, but never take this long

parties, faces, 

names and places

Turn on's starting while my world keeps turning

Writing like my hands on fire

flying on the wings I've borrowed

dancing with the fire snake

grooving for my shadow's sake

I feel a little like a child

looking back on what we created

I still think I hate you

for what you hid

In the end, 

were you ever my friend, 

you stranger

Now and then, I still think of you

and our little dog too

Still feels like 

a hole in my heart, 

and I just wonder why

Living in the Machine

This machine was

Built for us

For our future 

For people to prosper

Along came, 

Small men

Who Lacked love

But not envy

They put price tags on everything

Created a new step in sharing

We use the system

And see the symptoms

Makes us compete

To make ends meat

And we blame each other

For simply being animal

The charges lead

By unhappy people

Living unfulfilled Lives

Thinking their past was better

Wanting to Shrink all

To their lowly level

Never look to the top

To the operators above

The ones who create price tags

And promise to keep 'em down

And the operators fight

With a new group to blame

Loads of money raised

For their new campaign

So we all point and attack

And It's always the same

Inside this machine 

We're all still enslaved

The Burden Anthem

This world was barren, but full of life

Empty of buildings, and oh so ripe

And the animals saw us, even at night,

But they were helpless, we'd win the fight

On civilizations, we woke up

Traveling cross towns, knew what was right

The congregations arose, just out of spite

And some understood, they got to see light

And we have leaders

But we can lead ourselves

Who do we become

When the leaders lead us?

Idea of money and job, 

And all the steps involved

The time and energy, 

The system needs to evolve

Why such an enemy, 

And so removed from love

This place is full of stories

And the metaphors can travel everywhere

This place is heaven and hell

It can change at every corner

We created this world

Created these burdens

The river may have been straight

But we've made it perverted

And some will say, "We're powerless"

And really then the imagination's lost.

We got ourselves in, can get ourselves out

Come together to see what the big pictures about

Animal

I will love you
Long as you stick around
Will you stay with me
Forever and for all time

They stop and stare at me
To point and talk and giggle
I don't wanna be seen
Just hide out in the shadows

I will love you
Long as you stick around
I don't need you
Except when I feel down

I wanna eat her out
Devour her entirely
Just to prove I could
Another notch on my belt

I will love you
Long as you stick around
I'm just an animal
Who gets lonely in the dark

Puffers

Seasons changing

The leaves falling

Moon shining

My breath freezing

Grab my scarf

outta storage

smells like Puffers

My old companion

Memories of us

running through the park

The grass so green

the Leaves piled up

Your little dog smile

as you frolic along

hiding in the leaves

we play our own games

tired and sweaty

we return home

both in the shower

to wash away the germs

Holding you 

against my chest

Give me dog kisses

just to connect

smelling your little paws

A memory I can't forget

Winter's here again

the Leaves are brown

Maybe I'll see you

playing with some new friends

Game Over

She worshipped me

and I could see

what was happening

but I wouldn't concede

I pretended otherwise

to get my way

and ended on the otherside

with no games to play

and now I'm left

feeling spun out of control

no longer sure of what's up

no longer sure of where to go

feeling empty

a lack of myself

I'm hiding somewhere

under all the grief

Lap Dog

I wake up in the middle of the night

Another nightmare, givin me a fright

I see your face

I remember your games

Go back to the place

When nothing changed

And I wonder

And I wonder

Were we ever friends

Or just lovers

I see your name flashin on my phone

My heart starts to drop

I can't seem to let go

See images of you

With your other guys

Feeling small

Left by wayside

And I wonder

And I wonder

Were we ever friends

Or just lovers

What's wrong with me

Why can't I see

How I'm guilty

What's wrong with me

Why can't I see

The way she treated me

I can't keep you close

I gotta cut you loose

You're bringing me down

With all your frowns

I was never me, 

Never good enough

You'd bitch me out, 

Like you had it rough

I was caged and disciplined

I knew what was bad

Never learned the right way

You never wanted it good

And when I look back

I see what I was

I was just your lap dog

So loyal and dumb

You just put me down

Just put me down

And put me out

Into the ground

And I wonder

And I wonder

Were we ever friends

Or just lovers

And you say you're losing

Your very best friend

And I think to myself

This needs to end

Cause we were just

Just no longer friends